Advent: Friday, Third Week

Today's Action: Renew the intention to spend quiet time resting in the presence of the Lord. Be a light and save haven for others.

I'm going to not necessarily reflect on today's action, and instead, I'm just going to freewrite. I'm not feeling like being confined today.

I'm finding it hard to rationalize the bad things that happen in the world. Firstly, this crazy elevator instance where the lady got caught in it and died! It's just awful! What a strange nanosecond in time. I pray for her family and friends, as well as for her, that God takes care of them all.

I'm so ready to start this next phase of my life. It doesn't help that I'm sick. I hate not having the energy to do all the things on my to-do list. It really sets me back because I don't allow enough time in for back up. With all the stuff going on at work though, I can't help but feel just a tiny bit of guilt... some feeling of not finishing what I started. I keep praying that God will take care of all the people I work with. I know from past experience that, with time, things will just work themselves out they way they need to. The company will not go under just because I'm leaving, and hopefully, I'm banking on the fact that now someone else will get to shine. The company will have a new beginning as well, so that's exciting, right?

I want to maintain all the relationships I have. I know it's easier said than done, but this time I really want to try.

no no no no!

that's it. it was inevitable. i'm sick now.

>:o

it hit me like an 18-wheeler while i was sitting and reading and waiting for class to start. i was in a good, cheery mood. got through the workday with a little sore throat, but nothing that a ton of water and a lozenge couldn't handle. then i found myself all of a sudden blowing my nose alot. and now it's all stuffed up. this weird new orleans cold epidemic that everyone has been talking about has hit me. and i hope it doesn't leave me bedridden for the rest of the week cause i just have way too much stuff to do.

i got a 100 - A (by a 10 point curve, however) on my biology test!! woot! AWESOME! I think I'm going to do just fine in this class. :) i find it all so fascinating, and i think that gives me a little more motivation to do all that studying i've been doing. can't wait to get started on my volunteer work. i hope i don't become disenchanted too quickly. i have so many people talk down to me about how much it sucks to volunteer at a hospital and it's making me nervous. but i have no other choice! i have got to get in there and get some sort of ball rolling. i have to make some connections and gain some good references, not to mention the experience and the overall humanitarian fulfillment. either way, i already put a month's worth of work into the vaccines, uniforms, and papers that it's too late to turn back now.

i took some advil nighttime something or other 45 min ago and i feel it kicking in. good night!